Oh I forgot to say Steve was an ex Air Force officer and he had a pilots license and we flew all over in his little Beech Aircraft. He did sweep me off my feet. The 80s were a time of excess and it was also like a dream. I’ve learned those time are a part of me. So is my bottom in alcoholism. Because of that experience and such a colorful life I can help a lot of young men facing their alcoholism because I do understand how for so long the drinking and the drugs worked and their were good times But there is a time it just stops working and it’s real hard to just stop.

I don’t regret my life because I made me who I am. I was selfish back then too but I’m a better man today. And I keep working on myself daily. I’ll never be perfect but I’m lots happier now than before. So must be doing the right thing

I’m up too late ⏰ hahaha good night ya all

I agree wholeheartedly we are the masters of our domain

@A myHIVteam Member. These are good questions. It gives people a chance to think about something that they may or may not have resolved in their own minds.

I got HIV from a one night stand with a guy I hardly knew. It would have been forgotten, EXCEPT...

I figured out that he must have been infected from "doing the math". By the time I saw him, later, he was very sick.

What would have been gained by telling a sick man that he had infected me(?).

Nothing.

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He later visited me and he was drunk and I told him it was over. I was in bed with another man at the time he bursted in. He left sobbing. But he’d almost killed me so I had a hard time forgiving him until later. My mentor in Portland in the company I worked for in Alaska made friends with my ex partner when he returned. I visit that friend about three years into sobriety when we spoke about my ex Steve. The work was he drank more and more often and found another even younger man than me. They were together for about a year before the young man left him. He says he feared for his life because when Steve drank he was mean. Fred said Steve killed himsekf in a snout house in the Castro in the garage underneath the apartment. He drank a 5th of scotch took some sleeping pills and pushed a hose into the exhaust and locked the garage door. The other ex partner found him after three days dead. I found jealous Steve has been having sex with both men and women. He never considered himself a gay man. He’d say laughingly that he was just a very sexual guy. (Wanted Sex an average of 3x a day or more). I realized then that my boyfriend who was always so jealous of me was screwing around with everyone

I realized he never had the courage to come out. He always was a top and never versatile. But I was young and in love.

Rest in peace Steve. You were a well
liked handsome masculine man who never had the courage to come out or didn’t want to. He died alone with nobody. I finally cried for him. We were together for 4 years and the last year was hell. But he was the life of my life for three years and we had an amazing time flying all over Alaska into Washington on the SanJuans he had a home there and a cabin at Nancy Lake and I had a condominium in Anchorage he’d bought for me.

He never went back for all the assets he bought me. I was in love with him not his money. But now I have no regrets.

In a way I lucky. Steve caused be to sober up just before I found out I had AIDS and I used that 12 step program to make my way through the early times of the AIDS epidemic. Otherwise like three forths of my friends I’d have probably kept drinking and died of alcoholism or AIDS itself but I didn’t so thanks Steve.

Guess he was an angel in disguise don’t you think so ??

Mitch so true the government dropped the ball on this epidemic. I think things would be different now if the virus started in 2023.and I thank the late Larry Kramer and the group act up who probably saved life’s at the time. Including the lives of us thanks to Americans standing up to the establishment.