When You First Heard Of Your Diagnosis, Did Suicidal Tendencies Ever Cross Your Mind?
I asked this question 2 years ago. I thought I would refresh it with all the newer members that we've had in the last 2 years.
@A myHIVteam Member I am so glad that you found us too. It always good to have a lot of us to help support one another when we are having a rough time and we can help those who are newly diagnosed to find the answers they may be looking for and who better to help then those who have been dealing with this diease for many many years. I have never been so thankful to have a group like this one.
Yes tried 4 times but obviously there was plans for me after 30 plus years still here and going strong
Don't want to say what all crossed my mind when I got the news.
Wow that day was dark for me because I was uneducated about hiv and I sat there and it felt like a wave rushed over me. I left the hospital went to the park and cried then went home and threw away all my dishes and I thought I couldn't kiss my babies/ children again. I even contemplated killing us all by making some hot chocolate laced with something deadly because I figured I would go to hell but they would go to heaven to God because they were innocent souls. I'm so grateful that I had people that reached out to me. Because I was going out of my mind. I've never shared this before so know that I've haven't always been this strong faith based person you see today. Had I shared this my children probably wouldn't have been with me. God has kept me in spite of my foolish thinking. Thank you for letting me share safely. I love you and there's nothing you can do about it 💋🤗🙏
@A myHIVteam Member Sure, I was diagnosed with AIDs in 2010 while in treatment for substance abuse. I was focused on my recovery more than my diagnosis of AIDs. I was placed on antidepressants and anti anxiety meds. Fast forward to 2013- my HIV meds were not working and became suicidal - I reached out to several hospitals for mental health help to no avail due to history of drug abuse. Therefore, I attempted suicide and was in a coma for 13 days. My antidepressant had a side effect that was fueling my suicidal intentions. It’s been an emotional roller coaster ride and glad to ge here!
When You First Heard Of Your Diagnosis, Did Suicidal Tendencies Ever Cross Your Mind?
How Many Of You Thought Or Tried To Commit Suicide After Your Diagnosis? What Made You Change Your Mind?
I Know This Is A Tough Question But Have You Ever Tried To Or Thought About Taking Your Own Life? What Stopped You?
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