I was diagnosed in april right after covid took off. I was admitted to the hospital where i spent a week alone, in isolation, scared, nervous, guilty, shameful, etc. you name the emotion, i felt it. I like to turn everything into a positive (no pun inteded lol) so i took the time outside of the hospital, in quarantine (3 months) to really focus on me and my health both Physically and mentally. I was pretty terrified to go out. I didnt go inside of a building other than my doctors the entire time. Now that i know how to protect myself and others it doesnt really scare me other than the little anxiety i get when im out and see people without masks. Fortunately, im always aware of my surroundings and i just go the other way.

I've been very grateful during this pandemic that l haven't been sick at all. I'm thankful that I don't have to work or get out to much. I get my monthly payments on time so that helps with the bills ( even though it haven't been all easy) but praise God anyhow. It's been something staying in the house day in and day out, but wouldn't have it no other way. You must a good prayer life. I enjoy this page at least I can massage y'all, it helps me get through. I'm thankful.

So much has changed with me. I had too many dreams but they all disappear after covid am going through alot but learn to keep quiet cause everyone is passing through difficult because of covid but am not sure either if all of us are passing through difficulty at this moment.

@A myHIVteam Member,
Thanks for your question.
I think its probably been pretty bizarre for us all. I know it has been for us here in my neck of the woods.
My county has the fastest growing numbers in the state of TN. Jamestown is a small town, very redneck, and the people are very much of the attitude that "Nobody's gonna tell me what to do."
Now all we have here is a smaller Walmart, and we're supposed to be wearing a mask or not be able to get in.
I can safely say that probably half are NOT wearing masks.
I do, I sanitize, I do what only I can do. Most of the folks around here are pack'n and I think that's one of the reasons they just let them in, and outside no one wears them.
I'm gonna say this, I may catch some flack for it, but
"Ya just can't fix stupid." People here say, "Well God will protect me."
Well, God gave you common sense too, use it for heaven sake! Sure, "Jesus, Take the Wheel," but put your hands on it first dumb ass!
I'm sorry for the rant, please forgive me.
I only go out to the store when I need to get something groceries or meds then it's in/out and home, and I try to go early to have as little contact as possible.
I check myself out, and I will say that they're really good about sanitizing the checkout stations between customers and they spray down all the carts as they collect them and bring them back into the store, and provide antiseptic wipes for folks to wipe them down again if we wish.
As an individual, I can only do what I can do, I can do, no more.
I'm not going to live in fear, it causes unnecessary stress which is a waste of good energy. Yes, I miss being around people to socialize, and it gets hard sometimes. But you know what, it is what it is, and we need to find ways to adjust. We've been doing it for thousands of years.
We just need to "Keep on Keep'n on."
I love y'all, take care, be safe, and do what you can do. Hugs!!! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🌈💜💙💚💛🧡❤🌈😷😷😷😷

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I lived through some very difficult months in my life in the period of the pandemic. In February 2020 I was diagnosed with colon cancer due to HPV. I began treatment with chemo and radiotherapy at the same time, and in that same week the government of Spain decreed the confinement. I went through the process alone at home. My brother would leave my food in the hall of the house to avoid contagion. They were a terrible weeks, which fortunately have already passed. The treatments have worked well and I am very much recovered. I like nature and hikking often in a Natural Park, 15 minutes drive from home. It helps me a lot for healing.
On the positive side, the confinement at home, the loneliness and overcoming the terrible pain caused by radiation therapy gave me time to reflect again on where my life is. It served to reaffirm my will to live each day as intensely as possible, to thank the people who have shown so much their love for me and to try to return all that affection.