I love crowds and people especially during the Christmas season. 🤶🧑‍🎄🌈🛷🎄🎁

Well, if you were closer come with me to dinner and a boat cruise to see the lights. I'd get you a gift under the tree...but I have a pink Barbie tree this year. I'm sure you'd love it. My hubby passed 8 years ago and I miss him, he always got the biggest tree and ornaments that broke the bank that pissed me but he was too sexy to get mad at. he went crazy for the season. I had his big Mexican family too. My family used to be close but now all are dead or moved far. I made a new family now of friends. Yesterday I heard something brilliant, a drunk queen at the bar ( I probably was too) said "eff traditions, those are a ball and chain that keep you from new experiences". Hmmm. I like that. ❣️ (can you see the shadow outline of my pup in the pic?)

I am in the same boat this year unfortunately, my better half will be departing to see his family for the holidays (Christmas and NYE), and I thought I would be doing the same (seeing my family) but this turned out to be not the case. Had I known I would have gone with my better half, but ticket prices so close to the holidays now are expensive and I simply cannot afford it.

I am not sure what I will be doing - I might just put on a few movies, maybe play on the computer a bit, I really haven't given it much thought.

I am a little sad that I will be alone this year, but I have my cats, I have entertainment, I have a neighbor who will also be alone this Christmas, so I might just visit them. I just don't know.

My brother and I were raised in the foster care system. Lots of foster parents and if they didn't want us, we ended up in orphanages. Later, while in college, my brother came to my room and blurted out "I don't want to be brothers with you anymore. I just want to be friends!!!" Since then, we've never spent a holiday together. Our relationship is pretty much non-existent. Txt message exchange every now and then. Anyway, my decision is to celebrate being alone and with be with those who want to be with me.

Sometimes you just need some alone time so please don't stress over being alone.

In my case, since my folks died I've been alone once in a while. My older brother is a totally judgmental and critical prick who apparently has no issue spending his Christmas's with his in-laws. But when I ask for one day out of a whole 365, I get excuses for why it isn't possible. Three and a half years ago, we had a total blowout because once again I asked to spend a little time with him and was told that I was being selfish. That started a minor argument until he dragged his daughter into the emails. I was just done at that point and we haven't spoken for three and a half years and it will continue until he apologizes. I've come to the conclusion that it is far more peaceful and less stressful to live without toxic people like him in my life.

With any luck, this will be the last year alone. My boyfriend Troy still has family living so I encourage him to spend time with them as long as they are not toxic. He hasn't introduced me to his family yet, which when it happens may be awkward as I'm a year older than his mother. We are about to close on a house and move in maybe starting after Jan 6, 2025 so hopefully next Christmas will be our actual first Christmas together.

Sorry for the long story. But anyway, I do hope that you will be well and have a wonderful holiday season!!