About two months with someone who was also positive. Then I met an HIV negative guy to whom I disclose and he wanted to be with me. I used to be more of a top, but because of the fear of transmitting the infection, I became a bit more of a bottom. When we found out about U=U I went back to be totally vers

Frank if you take your meds consistently you won't infect. There are studies to prove this.

I was diagnosed in June 2012. Before that I was having and seeking to have sex as much as possible, but I had noticed that it was a compulsion. I wanted to stop and I did not know how. HIV was the stop I needed. I went into depression for a couple of days. Then I decided to cry as much and as hard as I could but only once, and then move on. The next few weeks I worked on the feelings I was having as well as on figuring out my care. I stayed away from sex for a few more weeks. I decided to go on POZ Personals to try to meet someone and I had sex about a month and a half later. Then I had sex with whom would become my husband (who was and still is negative) about four months later. Condoms were the rule for us at the time but I was very afraid of transmitting the infection to him. There were a couple of condoms broken by December when I even considered to brake up to protect him. He convinced me otherwise. A good thing as I did not know that, being already undetectable I could not pass the infection. I would have ditched him for no reason and limited myself (and him) of amazing experiences (and a few not so great too but that is part of the deal :)

Well when I stopped doing cocaine in 98 till 2015 I did not have sex or masaturbatd was to sick to even masterbate after 4/2012 when I got undetectble and was on testosterone replacement gel then I started masturbating again. I did not have sex or play with toys till 2016.

I dont look so much for sex now, but a relationship and deep friendship where I feel comfortable sexually with who I am and the bond I have with the other person. It has given me a deep desire to focus on a relationship first and sex second.