From your post, doesn't sound like HIV is the real issue. Would be nice to blame it, but sounds much deeper.

since i was 21 it been hard to have a good relationship with anyone thou we use protection im still scared to be with any one else so i been with the same guy for the last 4 years i am single now

I posted 6 months ago about difficulties similar to yours that my spouse and I were going through. As an update, we filed for divorce yesterday. The experiences leading up to it were filled with fear, unhapppiness and loss of self worth. We went to the Courthouse together and were able to file while remaining friends. After over 8 years together, we still have posessions to sort through. Fortunately, we are not filled with hatred. We only want each other to move on with our lives seperately, but happy. I am definitely in a much better place mentally. I hope you have found answers you are looking for.

Sorry to say but it's been over on his end for quite sometime and i bet he has another guy . This happened to me and they give you all the signals it's over but dont have the balls to tell ya.
Really so sorry for you, wishing you all the best .

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Yes Exactly the same